Nursery Progress Report!

Here are some before pictures of the nursery. It used to be our office and also had a bed in it once we got our king size bed for our room. It took a long time to clean it out because we are pack rats =P

AFTER:

We also put together our crib that we got early on. It was on clearance and was literally got it for a 3rd of its normal price!!!

There is still lots to do. I need to order the light fixture I have picked out for the room among other things.

15 Weeks

Far Along: 15 weeks

How Big is The Baby: Should be the size of a large navel orange.

Total Weight Gain: Not sure.... I had the flu this week and so when I went to the OB I weighed less than the first time I was there.

Maternity Clothes: Still rocking my pre-pregnancy jeans... but before you get jealous just know that they dont button or even zip all the way =D Maternity shirts.

Sleep: Its hit or miss at this point.

GENDER: ITS A BOY!

Movement: I am anxiously awaiting feeling it in the next couple of weeks! Hopefully my anterior placenta doesnt ruin it!

Food Cravings: Still sweets, fruit and milk. Total aversion to diet coke my former bff.

What I Miss: Sleep

What I'm looking forward to: Feeling Foster move.

Milestones: Naming the baby: Foster Everett D******

Symptoms: Acid reflux, burps, tiredness, breakouts, mood swings, headaches, dizziness, nausea.

And some pictures from the elective u/s we had at 14w:

Ok, seriously

I have been a bad blogger. There is SO much that I need to update on and I have just not found the time. So, here it goes:

After our elective ultrasound we went out to dinner with a bunch of our friends (literally like 16 or 18 other people). I am so thankful for the amazing group of supportive friends that we have. It was so nice to see everyone and have some of my friends that dont know each other meet one another. All in all we felt so blessed to have them all there to celebrate our "little man" with us.

The next day we named our little guy. His name will be: Foster Everett D*****
We are so in love with his name and we were so excited to share it with everyone.

Also since then we have been working hard on the nursery and got all of the painting done on the wainscoting and the walls. I am going to post another post with before and after pictures!!!!

14 weeks & Gender Scan

Far Along: 14 weeks

How Big is The Baby: At our elective scan they measured so we know exactly how big.... 5.5inches and 3 ounces!!!!

Total Weight Gain: At my OB appointment on wed I was up a total of 2 lbs. (I think, they never tell me!)

Maternity Clothes: Still in normal jeans but they dont button and can only zip a little bit. Maternity shirts because they re more comfy and longer.

Sleep: Sleep got a little bit better this week.

GENDER: To be revealed below!!!!

Movement: Not that I can feel but TONS of movement when we watch baby on the ultrasound.

Food Cravings: Fruit, sweet things.

What I Miss: lunch meat

What I'm looking forward to: Putting the final coat of paint in the nursery today!

Milestones: Finding out the gender of our baby!

Symptoms: Acid reflux, burps, tiredness, breakouts on my face (dear face wash, I miss you), slight dizziness, headaches.

Ok, time for the gender scan.....

We went and had an elective gender scan because anyone who knows me knows that I am not patient in the least bit. So we went and I also brought 2 of my best friends, Kelli and Emily, with us. We had to be there at 4:50 for the appointment and the day went sooooo slow!

Kelli brought me a super fun gift to open while we were waiting with one of her famous collages (that i love!) on the front! It had 2 adorable sleepers, pacifiers, a giraffe stuffed animal and some candy for me.

The scan was great, it is ALWAYS so nice to see the baby and it was super active for the ultrasound!!!

The gender was easily found and they were completely sure without a doubt.

ITS A BOY!!!!!!!!!!

We are so very excited to be having a little boy. It is so nice to be able to say "he" and "him"... we are so in love with our little guy already. I will add some pictures later when I load them on my computer.

NT results, u/s, OB appt and IM IN THE 2nd TRIMESTER!!!!!!!

On wednesday I had an OB appt with the a nurse practitioner at the office. I know some people dont like to see nurse practitioners but I love them, after all I am in school to be one =) I really liked the NP and she gave me a bunch of good info. I got to hear the baby's heartbeat on the doppler for the first time! I was so sad that Justin wasnt there to hear it with me but hopefully he will hear it soon.

After the OB appointment I met JD for lunch and then we went to our RE appointment to get our NT scan results. My RE is so sweet and I know I have said 100 times how much I love her, and again she was just great with us. She said that both our bloodwork and scan results put us in the high-risk zone for downs. Trisomy 18 and 13 came back with much better results and we dont have to worry about them. Normally after NT scan some people will get a great risk number like 1 in 27,000 but we got 1 in 159... so we have to worry. She said that they would suggest an amniocentesis (inserting a large needle thru my abdomen to remove amniotic fluid) in we would consider termination for a baby with down. We would never consider termination for this so she said that at this point she would wait because of the miscarriage risk associated with the procedure. So, form here we will be forwarded to an MFM or Peri (same thing) and have a level 2 ultrasound at the hospital sometime between 18 and 20ish weeks to look for more downs markers. At that point if we saw more things that point to downs we would probably do the amniocentesis just so that we would know if the baby did have downs and be prepared. We are optimistic that everything is fine but we have to take the necessary precautions. Overall, we are fine and have a positive outlook because I just "feel" that everything is going to be fine. The RE also did an ultrasound and the baby was facing the probe so that pictures werent the best but I will show you anyways because I think our baby is just so cute!
The RE also told us that we are DONE with PIO and Vivelle FINALLLLYYYYYYY! We were SO excited about this. But then she dropped the bomb... we were graduating (aka done at the RE's office and released to the OB officially). She hugged me and we were both so sad. I wish I could stay there forever. I just love her and I am so so thankful for her and all that she has done for us. She made our miracle with us and for that I will be forever grateful.

On wednesday night I got a HORRIBLE migraine. It was so bad that I couldnt focus my eyes to see the tv or anything. I felt like the room was spinning I was so dizzy and was very very nauseous. It lasted all night and was so bad that I couldnt really sleep. The next day I was still feeling pretty bad but not dying like the night before and I was really worried that maybe this was tied to the fact that I just stopped taking the PIO and Vivelle and couldnt help but be worried. The OB wanted me to come in so I did that afternoon and the baby sounded great in the doppler and they gave me some meds to use for these headaches. I was very pleased that they got me in and were worried about me.

Now the stats!!!


Far Along: 13 weeks!!!! Hello 2nd Tri!

How Big is The Baby: Size of a peach. About 4 inches long and weighing in at about 1.5 ounces.

Total Weight Gain: I am down 1.5 pounds from my last OB appt on their scale. They are starting my weight gain measurement from my first appointment there so I am going to also or I will get confused. So i am -1.5lbs.

Maternity Clothes: Still trying to rock the BE Band with my normal jeans but I am in maternity shirts for the length and non-tight tummy.

Sleep: Still not sleeping very well but my SNOOGLE is helping (its a pregnancy pillow)

GENDER: 1 more week till our elective gender scan!!!!! (next friday)

Movement: nothing yet.

Food Cravings: Fruit... I have been eating TONS of it. Also waffles and rice krispies.

What I Miss: I would kill for a Jersey Mike's Sub! for real.

What I'm looking forward to: Gender scan next week!

Milestones: Being in the 2nd Tri!!!!!!

Symptoms: Not sleeping well, frequent urination, headaches, tiredness, acid reflux.

today has been tough

Today was kind of like running into a brick wall. I dont know what to blame for the way I feel today but I dont like it! I have been feeling "off" all day. I have been tired, shaky, had an upset stomach, headache, sore butt, emotional day. I have cried at least 5 times and I just dont feel right.

I know what you are thinking.. "YOURE PREGNANT! OF COURSE YOU DONT FEEL RIGHT!" but today I just feel worse. I dont really like to complain about pregnancy because I am so thrilled and thankful to be pregnant that I am savoring every moment of it because I thought I may never know what its like. Today just feels like im getting sick or something.

One thing that has been weighing heavily on me is the bad news that we got at our NT scan last week. We havent gotten all of the results because we have to see what the blood work says this wednesday but the waiting is killing me. Its so hard to think that MY little baby, with 10 fingers and 10 toes, could be sick in there and there is nothing I can do. All I can do is hope that everything is ok. When the doctors say that this test is good because is results come back after more testing and you have a child with downs or trisomy 18 you have the option to "end" the pregnancy before you are toooooo far along. Those words feel like a knife in my chest. End the pregnancy? Give up what I have worked all this time for? I cant imagine that I would ever even consider that. Trisomy 18 terrifies me, if basically means that your baby will die in utero or at birth. Can you imagine?! I dont want to but I cant help but think about it. All of these things are just making me an emotional basket case. I just want a healthy baby to bring home and love.... why does this have to be so hard. Every step on this journey has been SO HARD. Why change now, huh?

Our little one, as well as Justin and I, could use all of the thoughts that you have to give us. Its a rough week and we are doing our best but its hard.

On another note- I had my first dream that included the sex of my baby last night and I dreamt that it was a GIRL. Wonder if thats a sign? =)

12 Weeks!!!

Some books and sources say that I am now in the second trimester and others say that it is at 13 weeks that you are the second trimester. So I am going to go with 13 weeks that way I am sure. SO- THIS IS THE LAST WEEK OF MY FIRST TRIMESTER! Crazy right?!?!

How Far Along: 12 weeks

How Big is The Baby: About the size of a plum. 3.5 inches long and weighing in at an ounce.

Total Weight Gain: I got weighed at the RE this week and it seems that I am down 4 pounds from last week at the OB? I think their scales are probably just different. I am going to assume that I am up maybe a total of 5 to 7 pounds total.

Maternity Clothes: I hate my BE Band but it is necessary, ugh! I bought a pair of maternity jeans and I hate them... they stretched right out and wont stay up.

Sleep: What is sleep? I dont sleep and its killing me. I would give ANYTHING to sleep.

GENDER: 2 more weeks!!!

Movement: cant wait to feel it in 5 or so weeks

Food Cravings: Sweets and ice cream (which I havent been giving in to too much) and also yesterday I had a ridiculous craving for Arbys.

What I Miss: DELI MEAT! Fish, coffee and mountain dew.

What I'm looking forward to: Finding out the gender in 2 weeks hopefully.

Milestones: making it to 12 weeks, huge decrease in miscarriage risk.

Symptoms: Unable to sleep, exhaustion, peeing constantly, heart burn, headaches, bloat.

NT Scan

So I went for my long awaited NT Scan. Everyone has always told me how wonderful they are, how awesome the baby looks at that point, everyone always has precious pictures of the profile etc.

Well....

Mine was awful and I could not be more pissed.

It was literally 3 minutes long. The guy acted super rushed. He acted like he didnt know me when he did my ER back in sept. We got ZERO pictures. He had the screen turned away so I didnt even get one glance at my baby. He showed us nothing. I asked for a gender guess and he said he would guess but never did and hurried out of the room and immediately went into a consult with another patient.

The one thing that he did say was that the nuchal fold was indeed thicker than they like to see but we will see what the blood work says.

I asked the nurse if he told her because he was supposed to give us a gender guess and he was already in that consult. We waited around so she could ask him when he was done and this is what he told her to tell us: "Its really just a guess, and I guess boy and Im right about 50% of the time". So basically he didnt know?!? I dont know if he thought it was a boy from what he saw or if he just said that because he couldnt tell but I guess Ill never know because he didnt say anything to us.

Basically I have never felt so let down. I have been looking forward to this scan in particular since our positive beta and I am SO LET DOWN. I started crying the minute he left the room.

So we got:

Bad news, no pictures, and no glimpse of the screen.

F*CKING FANTASTIC