It didnt ring.

I had my 7dpIUI progesterone level drawn yesterday. They want to see it over 15, but over 20 is preferable. Anything under 5 means that its questionable whether you even ovulated. Anything over 5 and under 15 is considered a "weak ovulation" with the possibility of bad quality eggs.

I was VERY worried about these results. My RE told me that this would be the best ovulation of my life. Over the past 7 days I am overanalyzed every feeling and thing that my body did. My boobs have been INCREDIBLY sore.... like painful to not wear a bra! I even slept in a bra last night. I have had cramping and pressure in my lower abdomen. I have been bloated which I know is from the stims but i had a "tightness" to touch that made me wonder if something was going on in there. I had basically convinced myself that this was it. I was so sure. I dont know how to explain how I went from being completely hopeless to feeling like it was happening. I was so happy.

Last night I must have been worrying about my results because I had a VIVID dream last night. I dreamt that I got the call and my progesterone was 240 (which would be CRAZY high) and that all of the sudden I had quads. I went from getting the call to havig 4 babies right there with Justin and I. I woke up at 7:44 and wish that I never did.

At 8:32 my phone rang. My REs nurse informed me that my progesterone came back at 3.9. Could it be any worse?!?! She said not to give up hope because crazier things have happened. But this means that she is hoping for a miracle because my odds are horrible. Then she said "call us when your period starts so we can get you in for a cd 1,2, or 3 ultrasound." Any hope shot.

Immediately I am devastated. I screamed, I cried, I pleaded for my phone to ring again and have her say they confused the results. It didnt ring.